Thursday, January 8, 2009
Who am I? How am I doing? Where am I headed?
Who am I? How am I doing? Where am I headed? These are the checkpoint questions I have learned to ask myself as a result of many years of personal growth and spiritual development. I didn't get where I am by accident. I believe in destiny, fate, God's plan, call it what you may. Each life experience taught me lessons from which I can better myself. The recent breakup with my boyfriend is yet one more experience from which I can take time to reflect on who I am and how I am doing, then decide where I am headed. I am a single mother. I have lived, other than the eleven years I was married to the father of my children, as a single woman. It has been a difficult journey with many ups and downs. Raising my children, as a single mother, was the most challenging and most rewarding part of that journey. They have grown into productive, joyful, healthy individuals and they are a source of great pride. I look forward to enjoying many years with my grandchildren helping them grow into happy and healthy adults. I am an educator. I have taught in public and private schools and am now retired. However, I continue to tutor and am going back to substitute teaching. My journey as one who is gainful and productive continues in a positive manner. For this I am grateful. I am a friend. Thank goodness for the girlfriends who have supported me through the last few months of struggle and suffering. I return their friendship in many ways and with that we continue a lifelong relationship. I am a daughter. I am not doing too well with this part of my being. Watching mom in her illness saddens me as I can not make her well. I try to concentrate on the gifts she still has which is a sharp mind and good counsel. My journey with her is treasured and I try to remain present and focused when I am with her. I am single and available. I am forever the optimist maintaining a hopeful outlook that one day my true love will come. As I get older, I question such frivolity of thought, but it is who I am. I maintain a good figure, healthy outlook, and keep myself active and interesting as I seek a life partner who is in sync with my being. All in all, I am pleased with who I am and how I am doing. The journey through life is always going to be filled with ups and downs, but those are the checkpoints that keep me strong. So I ask of you...how are you doing? where are you headed? I look forward to your comments. Until then, that's how I see it, Karen