Tuesday, August 16, 2011

I know she will rest in peace

Born September 25, 1917.
Died June 28, 2011.
She was 93 years, 9 months, and 3 days old.


Six weeks after mom died, I am still mourning, but I am not crying anymore. I am only just beginning to feel whole.  The idea of not having my mother to talk to , to touch, to hug, to kiss, has me living in a surreal existence.  She is always present in my thoughts.  It is almost as if she is here, with me, guiding me, consoling me, counseling me, comforting me as she has done for the past 64  years of my life.   Sometimes I reach out and yearn and long for her touch...that is the hardest feeling to overcome.  It sometimes gets so intense I think I will go crazy from the longing.  Sixty-four years of living life with its ups and downs teaches me that I am reacting to a feeling that will disipate in time.  My reality is my acceptance that mom is no longer with me, physically, but she is with me spiritually.  I know she will rest in peace.  Will I?

7 comments:

Paula said...

So sorry for your loss Karen. You did have a relationship with your Mom that not everyone is priviledged to have so you can bask it that fact. Now take care of yourself the way your Mom would want you to.

Bucko (a.k.a., Ken) said...

It is hard to lose a parent, we have both lost one, hugs to you. It does get easier with time, but you never forget.

Anonymous said...

Karen I'm so sorry for your loss, I will keep you and your family in my prayers. Jean

Claudia's Genealogy Blog said...

I lost my mother in 1995 and I can honestly tell you that the feeling of loss and sadness will last for a few years. Now, sixteen years later it is lessened considerably and what I wish now was for her to answer the genealogical question I never asked.

Kay said...

I am sorry to hear about your mom. I lost my husband on June 15, 2011. I go to a grief support group at our senior center once a week.

madcobug said...

So sorry about your Mom. It has been 16 years since I lost mine but at times it seems only yesterday. May God be with you and bring you peace and an uplift in spirits. Helen

Kay said...

I was told that you are trying to contact me.

Kay