Wednesday, October 15, 2008
The Night Before Surgery
Tomorrow is the big day. By tomorrow night I will be pain free of torn meniscus and only handling superficial pain from surgery. I am so mixed with feelings and I don't know why. On one hand I am grateful that I can have this surgery at this time when medical technology is so apt and recovery will be a breeze; and yet, I am so fearful of what may go wrong while I am under anesthesia. I believe my age has much to do with these conflicted feelings. If I was thirty years younger, I would have less life experience and therefore fewer ideas to imagine in what could go wrong. On the other hand, I am an elder and therefore wise. I expect myself to think wisely, knowing the surgery is minor and the outcome will be stupendous. After all, I will be able to run...I love to run. I haven't ran in over a year and my weight gain is evidence of that. I will be able to cross my legs, walk steps without wincing, dance while listening to my iPod, and a boatload of other stuff (lucky Bob!!) Hi Bob! [sip] (that one is for Beth at Nutwood Junction-go ask her about it). I am believing what I feel tonight is normal, but I don't like the feeling. So there, I've said it! I don't like green eggs and ham!! Agh! Ok, ok...It's off my chest. Now I can go watch the Phillies slaughter the Dodgers and go to the World Series. Go Phillies!!